Understand that I have a million responsibilities that I am learning to live with. Yes, it is in living where emphasis should be placed because I can choose at any moment not to fulfill a responsibility or an obligation or a commitment. I can choose at any moment to die, but instead I choose to live because life is worth living.
Understand that I don't always feel this way. Understand that no matter how much I know in my head that God is using me for greatness, I am still sometimes betrayed by my heart when flooded with emotions that have greater context than they deserve.
Understand that I am not larger than life, but I am just me. I struggle with little things that seem minute to others but seem extraordinarily big to me. I am just a regular person, but there is nothing normal about me - - nor would I want there to be.
Understand that I am fighting with all my might. Understand that I cannot look back. Understand that I will never be the same again. Understand that that this is what movement looks like. Understand that this is what life looks like. Understand.
Thursday, June 5, 2014
Time is running out. Time to do all the things I've always wanted to do. Time to say what I want to do and then do it. Time today spent taking a walk. Time tomorrow is lost on the clock. Time will tell. Time will prevail. Time needs to be spent reading the mail. Time is nothing if not a constant guarentee of who we truly are by how we spend our time. Time both ends and lasts forever. What if today is your final hour?